CommitmentPhobia; It's a real thing

Albert Einstein defines Insanity as "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results" 

Now as I have stated in my previous post, I'm a commitment-phobe. I believe the only things I have committed to are Graphic Design, Choir, and Praise Dancing. I'm trying, I really am. 

I want to do so much in life. I want to succeed in things I am passionate about, I want to live a healthier lifestyle, I want to be a good person. I want to live and love myself and others without regrets, and I want to accept and grow from my mistakes without being so critical of myself because I AM MY OWN BIGGEST CRITIC. 

“I am my own biggest critic. Before anyone else has criticized me, I have already criticized myself. But for the rest of my life, I am going to be with me and I don't want to spend my life with someone who is always critical. So I am going to stop being my own critic. It's high time that I accept all the great things about me.”― C. JoyBell C.

That is my goal for this month (until my next post & beyond,) not being so critical of myself. As I look for employment, knowing that I am good enough, knowing that I CAN make things happen and continuing to put myself out there even after hearing NO or no reply at all.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. 

Philippians 4:13

Some may say that the scripture is cliche but its true and I believe the Bible to Be the Inspired and Only Infallible Written Word of God.

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In other news...
This weekend, my aunt, sister, cousins and myself had our annual Girl's Weekend. Though we were, a couple bodies short, we gained a couple new ones. It was quite enjoyable. It felt good just to be around them and laugh, shop, talk and cook. I like cooking (hate doing dishes though). It felt awesome being together, unfiltered and uninterrupted (expect a certain someone having to go to work Saturday Morning.) Good times, good stuff. Love those ladies.

Anywho. Later Loves,
Until Next Time 

Let's Be Honest....2014

Hello Loves!!

    I put myself up to a challenge to blog once a month in 2014 on New Years Day. I even set an alarm for the 15th of every month to do so. Seeing that today is the 30th of January, I am very unreliable to myself.

This year I will begin by admitting some things to myself and with doing so, hopefully I can change them for nothing but the better.
     1. I have a commitment issue.
         I can always begin things but I have a hard time sticking around to see results.
     2. I'm an introvert.
         Merriam-Webster defines an introvert as : a shy person : a quiet person who does not find it easy to talk to other people... Quiet people have the loudest minds.
     3. Being an introvert, I am very soft-spoken.
         Being soft-spoken doesn't get you heard or recognized and it gets nothing done.
     4. I underestimate myself way too much.
         Mentally and some of the time physically I know I can do certain things but somewhere and somehow self doubt creeps in and I lose site of the potential goal.
    5. I have a huge fear of failure.
        I don't understand. This coincides with number one and number four. Sometimes I don't even put  myself into positions where I will have the potential to fail.

So with this being said, it is my goal to seriously better myself in 2014!!! I hope you'll be on my team because I think I'll need a good team of encouragers.

Later!!!
Until Next Time!

Growing

Ok I know this has nothing to do with my hair health but this has everything to do with my health.

This past week has been eye opening for me. I've pretty much been lied on, and my entire family has been the subject of someone's assumptions. I was pretty much so consumed with anger that the person's name merely set me off or a showcase of their habits merely set me ablaze. But I've learned to let it go. I forgive them whether they realize they did something wrong or don't even care if they did something ill mannered. 

I'm learning that I need to speak up. I can't allow people to continuously to walk over me because in the end I am the only still thinking about the issue. 

On another note, I hate to see people I love in terrible situations and relationships. I don't know if its love, rebellion, or if they are in it for the company but sometimes its just painful to see what they don't. I know I've never been in a relationship, never experienced love but come on! Some things are just clear as day!

TIME TO LEARN TO SPEAK UP!

Lauren has nothing to worry about accept for the planning of her 21st birthday June 10 & 11 and starting school on August 30th 2011! Letting go of all the mess.

Today, May 23, 2011, regardless of what happened last week or even yesterday, I woke up grateful, with a smile on my face.

Later LOVES!